:: prelims ::

i kinda realised i havnt blogged for three months already. so many things have happened during this period, syf, national shooting, broken up with girlfriend and stuff like that... but now that its all over, its time to set my heart for the prelims and then the final big a's.

curently, there is this thing weighing on my mind. for those who didnt know, im currently attending city harvest church now, with my good friends from acjc, bronson, yuhan, joel and dhanuj... the people there are really great, esp jo, jess, shirleen and eva. but then, i think about my best friend and i feel a huge wave of guilt surging over me. because he is prob the closest anyone would be to me, and he is really like a brother, and i really want to be closest of friends in this lifetime. but his cell group timing is really inconvenient for me. and i seriously would like to grow in my bible knowledge. hence i tried out this cell group which is for the jc ppl and i found that it suits me quite ok. there are also nj people there, which he can relate to as well cos his current cell group is of the working age and he is the youngest there. i m hoping he can come and join me so that there would be a group of like minded people to support him thru this period, esp when his studies are not doing so well as he would like it to have been at this point of time. i havnt been able to speak to him about this, and its kinda weighing on my mind quite badly. prob i would try to arrange something soon. rarr...

now about my prelims, there is only 29 days as of today, and i havnt started anything yet! except for chem which i can prob do some cip by peer tutoring with. but im screwed for maths and econs especially! haha... ok la.. passable, but i kinda want to do as well for my prelims as possible so that i can apply for universities with it. rarr... all you guys out there pls pray for me, that i would have the self discipline to study, as well as the ability to retain and apply wat i have learnt. i really need a miracle to help me now! haha...

anyways, i feel kinda shitty now... and i havnt chosen my next exco... another mental strength draining shit... rarr... tmr is council invest... how i envy them... can concentrate on their studies already...