:: promos ::
damn... one week left to promos... and still counting down... things between me and ms ho are getting better... less icy at least... everything is still very far behind... so much to cover.. so little time... and yet i m still blogging... i wonder why...
been quite troubled lately... over studies, and hell lot of other nonsense things... next week my parents would be out of singapore... i should feel quite happy as i finally got my freedom... but then lies the burden of having to look after my siblings... getting quite weary as i still have to manage the revision for my own promos... i think the possibility of me staying back is far greater than any of my siblings... but yet i still have to go and look after them, run after them, make sure they are well and fed... all at my expense... i really dunno what to do... the pressure is building up... and i have no where to run away to... can anyone help me here? just this once? i really need it...
have been studing my life out recently... still cant grasp alot of nonsense concepts... and everyone thinks i m doing well... it sucks to have this feeling and no one to comfort you... not even one single person... the last time i had such pressure, i had my cell group to pray for me... now they have grown so distant, i also dun feel like troubling them...
ARGH... now i know how peter pan feels... how never to grow up and always stay young... oh talking about staying young, rui qi commented that i look younger than i did in sec two... i was like omg... well... i shall take it in a positive light... haha...
i feel like crying... but no one to cry with... i feel like complaining.. but no one to complain to... i feel like panicking... but no one to comfort me... i suddenly feel very alone and helpless... (ps. its a synonym for independent)... i feel like suddenly all the people around me are like phantoms... looks like they are always there... always behind you... but when you turn around... you find that you are all alone...
sometimes... it is really true that the widest and brightest smiles hide the deepest troubles...
been quite troubled lately... over studies, and hell lot of other nonsense things... next week my parents would be out of singapore... i should feel quite happy as i finally got my freedom... but then lies the burden of having to look after my siblings... getting quite weary as i still have to manage the revision for my own promos... i think the possibility of me staying back is far greater than any of my siblings... but yet i still have to go and look after them, run after them, make sure they are well and fed... all at my expense... i really dunno what to do... the pressure is building up... and i have no where to run away to... can anyone help me here? just this once? i really need it...
have been studing my life out recently... still cant grasp alot of nonsense concepts... and everyone thinks i m doing well... it sucks to have this feeling and no one to comfort you... not even one single person... the last time i had such pressure, i had my cell group to pray for me... now they have grown so distant, i also dun feel like troubling them...
ARGH... now i know how peter pan feels... how never to grow up and always stay young... oh talking about staying young, rui qi commented that i look younger than i did in sec two... i was like omg... well... i shall take it in a positive light... haha...
i feel like crying... but no one to cry with... i feel like complaining.. but no one to complain to... i feel like panicking... but no one to comfort me... i suddenly feel very alone and helpless... (ps. its a synonym for independent)... i feel like suddenly all the people around me are like phantoms... looks like they are always there... always behind you... but when you turn around... you find that you are all alone...
sometimes... it is really true that the widest and brightest smiles hide the deepest troubles...