:: today the fourth of august ::

whew... time passes so fast... its near to my english orals already... still remember that not too long ago that i took my chinese oral... haha... well... i think that it is going to be a breeze for me since i m so profficient in it... haha... not self boasting but i got a 36/40 for my prelims oral... haha... the highest in the class so far... haha... " i want to thank my father, my mother and most of all, mr sydney tan for grooming me thus far".... haha... now i m being so irritating.... kk.. i shall stop it...

i really feel sorry for zm.... both his grandparents passed away within a span of ten days... but he seems ok, as in like he is still so playful and disturbing.... dunno how i can help him without him telling me how...

i have officially stepped down from being the lawrence house captain... my reflection about my post is that " although it is not certain that we have lost the house cup totally, i have done my best to keep it already... of course, there are ups and downs in this post, i must say that i came off enriched by this experience. i learnt how to deal with people that are troublemakers in my house, i have learnt how to deal with people that are jealous of my post, i have learnt how to deal with people that are from other houses and dunno how to keep their fat mouth shut least people will know that they are made up of shit since nothing good comes out from their mouth ( gou zhui zhang bu chu xiang ya).... i have learnt how to control my temper... experienced alot of politics, suanned by alot of people and also, have learnt how to differentiate people who stick to you because of your posts and those who are really your friends. of course, at the peak of lawrence house's glory, there are alot of people that want to be your "friends", but there will also have people who will come and congratulate you sincerly.

at the peak, there will also have alot of rumours that you did not achieve it by your own strength. then my good friend told me " if you stand straight, you dun need to worry that your shadow is crooked! rumours would just be rumours and they would die down by themselves".. i would suppose that that would how it would be like, out there in the working world. thus i m appreciative that i have learnt how to deal with it now, rather than face defeat when it is crucial. i feel that i have done my best in doing what i should to prevent a defeat, but how can one man fight against the whole army? i would also need the cooperation of my "army"!

i felt that it is a race well run and its now time to let go and hand the reigns over to the next batch of sec fours(present sec threes) and hope that they will revive the house. but then, the house master and house mistress are retiring and i really dunno who is going to take over. i just hope, in the interest of the house, that it would be someone that is responsible, innitiative and well liked.

lastly, i would like to end off with a quote from the bible: " the birds in the sky do not worry about not having enough food to eat. they do not store up in barns. even the lilies in the field do not worry about not having enough clothing to wear. i tell you the truth, even solomon in his splendor are like the grasses in the fields".... why should we worry about what is coming tomorrow when there is enough to worry about for today? leave it to God to settle everything for you... for he will provide for you according to his riches in glory... and revenge is God's to take... :)