:: sianz ::

i just got rejected 10 times in a row when i asked ppl to go out with me on my birthday... starting to get abit sian already and thinking of calling it off... everytime i get rejected i would say nvm, but in fact, i really do mind... dunno why m i cheating myself... should start to stop being the "Mr nice guy"....

really doesnt pay to be good... get called names and stuff like that... and then ppl take you for granted... thinking you will always be there for them... and its not a mutual thing.... i m starting to get tired of this kinda of lifestyle.... why should i always be the one that is there for them and also not get appreciated for it.... really feel like calling the whole celebration off, if not for aloysius who initiated it... feel that if i call it off then i would let him down...

man, this life really sux... with the big O's coming up and not getting much support from the so called " friends" that you see everyday, plus that everyone takes you for granted or treats you like shit.... man, this really sux...

also, just received the letter from njc to tell me that i have not been short listed for the entrance exam... no wonder they say that " huo bu dan xing" (troubles do not come alone)... when you are down, you are really down...

enuf about depressing stuff... last friday, ezekiel messaged me to tell me that i have won a black eye peas album... but when i called to check when i can collect the album, i always get the answering machine...have been calling for a week now... its so unfair.... everything bad comes to me... not as if complaining would help but just to get it off my chest.... but come to think about it... these are just petty stuff right... i should not let it get me down.... but its easier said than done... hahas... what m i doing... contradicting myself...

i hope this streak of "bad luck" would end here as i m getting really tired of it already...